Music Review: Jessy J’s ‘Hot Sauce’

Jessica Spinella, also known as Jessy J, is an emerging Latina musician.

Her father is from Mexico and her mother is from Texas. She began playing the piano and the saxophone at a very young age and went on to studying jazz at the University of Southern California. After graduating, she toured with artists such as Michael Bublé.

‘Hot Sauce’ is her third album, which displays more of a Latino vibe. Paul Brown, a smooth jazz legend, is the producer for the majority of the album. Together, they blend several sounds and rhythms, creating an electric performance. The album also features several musicians such as Joe Sample, Harvey Mason and Gregg Karukas.

‘Remember The Night’ is the first track on the album and it showcases Jessy J playing the saxophone. It is an upbeat track that transports you to the streets of Latin America. Tracks such as ‘Hot Sauce’ make you connect to Jessy J’s Latin roots, and the salsa feeling that compliments it gives you an urge to dance. There are certain tracks that have a slower beat, such as ‘Rio Grande.’ It starts out with smooth sounds and harmonizes between two saxophones.

This album is full of great smooth jazz. For those who prefer some sort of vocals, have a listen to ‘In A Sentimental Mood.’ With Saunders Sermon on vocals, this song is fascinating and extremely catchy. If you have never been a fan of jazz, give this album a chance; you might change your mind. It’s a great album to have on your iPod, and Jessy J is a musician to keep an eye on.

Juanes – A Global Latino

Declared to be one of the most important figures of Latino music by Los Angeles Times and one of the top 100 most influential personalities by Time magazine, Juanes is known as the #1 rock Latino artist around the world.

Even though many people still think that Juanes is a band conformed of 2 or 3 people, “Juanes” actually stands for Juan Esteban. He is a Colombian singer that has overcome the barriers of language and culture with his music. So far, Juanes has been the first and only artist to sing in the European Parliament in Spanish. Also, he has been one of the few artists to reach high levels of popularity in Japan without speaking a single word of Japanese. But besides all his fame, popularity, and talent, Juanes is an artist who worries about social justice. For that reason he created his non-profit organization called “Mi Sangre Foundation” which focuses on helping landmine survivors of Colombia.

It needs to be said that Juanes’ uniqueness lies in the simplicity and originality of his songs. On each of his songs Juanes utilizes Colombian Guasca, which is the traditional music of Colombia; such music employs the usage of the accordion and guitar; the perfect example is Juanes’ song “Fijate Bien,” with which he launched his international career. But besides the music, are the lyrics of his songs, some call for peace and others make fun of the difficult issues we face in our daily lives.

But you’re probably asking yourself, why is this girl so interested in spreading the word about Juanes’ life? The answer is simple: I’m a 100% Juanes fan. My love for him started several years ago, when he was still part of Ekhymosis, a Colombian rock band that no longer exists. I can say that I would do everything for Juanes. Well let me rephrase; almost everything. My fascination for Juanes is such that when he came to El Paso, Texas for the first time I followed him to his hotel after his concert. My desire to obtain his autograph and have a picture with him was so great that I waited outside his hotel until six in the morning. You might be wondering if I was able to meet him and to my fortune I can say yes! He is one of those few artists that remain close to his roots despite all the fame he enjoys.

When Juanes returned to my hometown for the “La Vida es un Ratico,” I was not able to repeat the experience of following him, but at least I have the satisfaction of going to one of the best Juanes’ performances I have ever seen. In this particular concert, Juanes had a high-quality light show, full of effects, which made the concert more enjoyable and fascinating for his fans. Juanes sang most of the songs on his new album such as “Me Enamora”, “Gotas de Agua Dulce” and his most recent song “Tres,” which have become hits all over the country in a short period of time. He also interpreted the songs that made him popular such as “La Camisa Negra,” “Mala Gente” and “A Dios le Pido.”

After confessing my debility for Juanes, I just want to recommend that you to go to one of his concerts whenever you have a chance. I guarantee you’ll fall in love with him, the same way I did, and grateful that he shares his music talents with us. If you would like to know more about Juanes visit his website www.juanes.net/

January 2011

Radio La Chusma

At the front of Radio La Chusma, a band that blends together Afro-Mexica beats, Reggae and Cumbias to create a vibrant border-world beat sound, stands Selina Nevarez at no more than 5′ 1”. Her small statue is misleading to her big role in the border band. Not only does her powerful voice provide the high voice that completes their sound but her uplifting lyrics and positive attitude reflects the message of love and acceptance that the band strives to spread throughout the Southwest and rest of the world.

The blending of cultures and sounds, the emphasis on history and heritage, and the crowd-inspiring lyrics is what this group is all about. Lyrics such as those in Keep Movin’, “Life is too short to be staring at a clock. Get up and keep on moving to the rhythm that rocks,” captures the fun-loving attitude of Radio La Chusma’s region and is simply perfect to get up and dance to. It’s no wonder why their song, “Adelante,” is the first and only song with Spanish lyrics used to represent an American city, why their shows become packed with people of all ages and backgrounds, and why their songs are played around the world.

According to Selina, this band is out to prove to the world that there is beauty in blending of cultures, border regions, and that music is all about celebrating life. Besides her work with the band, Selina is also working on the release of her first solo album entitled It’s About Time. Inspired by her mother, artists such as jazz queen Ella Fitzgerald and Chavela Vargas, Selina grew up breathing music and has since then transformed her passion into her career. She shares about her experience with the band, her solo jazz career, her dreams of becoming an educator and why music is such an important aspect of her life.

1. How did you become interested in music and in singing?
I’ve always just been into music, it’s always been around me and a part of my life. I grew up listening to my parents singing and I learned harmony by listening to my dad sing along to Beatle’s records. I can’t remember a time I wasn’t singing. I always had to sing Linda Ronstadt’s Canciones de Mi Padre songs at family parties. My mom has a tape recorded of me when I was two years old and I was just jumping up and down singing Ten Little Monkeys. So I always have and I always will sing, it makes me happy and it’s a great feeling.

2. Who was your greatest inspiration growing up?
I would have to say my mom, for sure. She worked so hard and she has this never-quit attitude. She was the one who introduced me to music. She always played music for me whether it was Disney records or the Wee Sing tapes. When I was 6 months old, she took me to go see Annie and one of her favorite stories to tell was that I just sat there quietly watching.

3. What artists have influenced your work?
As far as my musical influences go, I just love all music. I like classical music, jazz- I love Ella Fitzgerald, she’s what got me into jazz- and old school Mexican artists like Chavela Vargas. Basically, I like anything with soul. I don’t think singing should always be so pretty. I think it should have more soul in it because life isn’t always so pretty.

4. Not many people know about your solo career, can you tell me about your recent album?
Basically when I decided to start recording music I was working with this artist named Tony Buenes aka Mano Sol. He showed me a beat and I wrote something for it. My solo work is a lot more jazzy than what we do with Radio La Chusma. It turned into us performing shows and started an album. I’ve been working on my solo album, It’s About Time. It’s called because it is about time and also because it’s about time I finish it. I’ve been working on my album for a few years now and finally it’s almost finished.

5. How did you get involved with Radio La Chusma?
I started my solo album in 2005 and one day Radio La Chusma saw me performing. Ernie (the lead guitarist and vocalist) came up to me in Ernie style and asked, “Hey, when are you going to start working with us?” I told him, “Whenever you ask me.” After that, I started with them right away. When I first heard Radio La Chusma’s music, I loved the sound of it and their message. I always heard my part in their music, like my top vocal belonged there. When I first started practicing with them I just sang that part I’ve always heard and it just fit; it’s that other harmony, that high voice, that was missing. It’s been really good ever since.

6. How is Radio La Chusma different from other bands?
We like to share our music and I think our music has an eclectic sound and it’s likable to all kinds of people. It doesn’t matter where you’re from, how old you are, what your background is, we’ll probably play something that you enjoy and that you want to move to. I think that comes from being a positive group that tries to spread a message of love and understanding and acceptance and just laughter and fun and life. We’re trying to be one of the few bands out there that promotes a good message. There is so much trash out there that’s filled with sex and violence and drugs and that’s not what music is about. Music is about a celebration of life.

7. How do you incorporate your culture and history into your music?
One thing for sure is that if you don’t know where you have been, then you don’t know who you are or where you’re going. I think right now in our society a lot of people feel kinda lost as far as who you are as an individual and I think a big part of that is because we’ve lost the history of our culture. People think that their history began 200 years ago in this country and it didn’t. It actually began hundreds and hundreds of years ago in Mexico and Europe and Africa; it’s a mixture of all of those places. So we have a huge mixture in our culture. For hundreds of years, indigenous cultures were kept in secret, kept silent, being native was embarrassing, shamed upon and people didn’t relate themselves to that. We’re native to this land and I think that’s one of the reasons why our culture is so strong and why we have such a vibrant society because we feel that energy from this land, being from this land. We want to bring that our in our music. It’s a history lesson at the same time that it’s a lesson about love and all that stuff. We want to remind people of that history.

8. What is like being the only female in the group?
Strangely it’s really no different from anything. I never feel weird or awkward. We’re a very close family and sometimes I think it’s more important for a band to be a family rather than friends. We don’t really hang out outside the band and party. We meet for band and we meet for work. When we go on the road together we’re stuck with each other for days and there’s never a problem. We have a lot of fun, everyone’s funny, everyone’s open, we like to play frisbee and go swimming, and just have fun. The guys are like my big brothers. I grew up in a house with two older sisters so I’ve never had a brother in my life. They call me the annoying little sister and I guess I am.

9. What advice would you give to a young girl who wants to start a music career?
My advice would be to never to stop. Never stop, especially because you don’t think you can or somebody else doesn’t think you can or there’s somebody telling you to get a real job or that’s a horrible business or whatever. You have to do what you love and if you’re just trying to be a millionaire, you probably shouldn’t be doing that. You have to be determined and you can’t be knocked down just because someone doesn’t like you. Not everyone in this world is going to like what you do and that’s no reason to stop anything you’re doing whether it’s music or business or school, you just have to keep doing what you want to do for you. Just keep going because eventually it will pay off. That’s what makes life worth living, living it and not hiding away.

By Dejeanne Doublet

Monterrock

Rhythmic beats, Spanish lyrics, and rock and roll with a Latin touch define the independent music movement in Mexico and Latin America. For decades, bands such as Café Tacuba and Jaguares have been able to crossover in the United States and Europe, bringing attention to Latin America’s indie scene. And now all eyes are on Monterrey — the epicenter of Mexico’s indie music scene.

The music from Monterrey is known as Monterrock, but includes a variety of music styles.

The term Monterrock also stands for the music subculture that developed in the Mexican state of Nuevo Leon’s capital —Monterrey. The movement began in the late nineties and has witnessed the birth of popular bands such as Jumbo, Panda, Volovan, Division Minuscula and Kinky, among many others. Today, the movement is made up of hundreds of bands—many of which make music at small independent recording studios or at their own homes. The movement’s poularity with music fans has made Monterrey the country’s music capital, some say. To understand Monterrock, we asked Beto Pasillas—Lubrick’s charismatic drummer— to tell us about the music and movement.

Beto Pasillas- Baterista de Lubrick

  1. How does it feel to be part of the Monterrock Independent movement?

    - I feel very fortunate because it is one of the principal musical movements in Mexico that is made up of great bands from Monterrey who support music and who are passionate about it. People from Monterrey like rock music, and are willing to support this music movement by going to small venues and large concerts. Overall, I feel fortunate that the audience is willing to listen to new music and support “indies” like us.

  2. What are the advantages and disadvantages of being part of Monterrock?

    - I think that a great advantage is that many great bands from Mexico have flourished from Monterrey. This is why audiences are always looking for new bands that start in this region. The only disadvantage I would point out in this particular movement is the lack of support from record labels. On the other hand, there isn’t a lack of support from fans. They are always willing to attend a concert and buy the band’s products.

  3. What bands from Monterrock have influences your band’s music?

    - I think that the bands from “Avanzada Regia” that flourished during the nineties are the ones that have influence our music. These bands are Jumbo, Zurdok, Plastilina Mosh and Kinky. It is great that the majority of these bands are still part of Monterrock, since these are the bands that made the indie movement popular in Mexico. Audiences see Monterrey as an outstanding music exporter. For this reason, we are glad that these pioneer bands have influenced our music.

  4. How do you balance your commitment to your band with your personal life (school and work)?

    - Balancing these two things is tough. Time management is necessary in order to make both things work. I’ve always believed that having a band is like having a girlfriend who needs to be given time and respect to make a relationship work. As a result, Lubrick’s members dedicate their mornings to school. In order to balance our school work with the band, we plan practices in the afternoons several days per week. In the end, weekends are devoted to our shows. Organization is what keeps our lives balanced.

  5. Where do you see the movement going in 10 years?

    - I think that in 10 years Monterrock will be a lot bigger. I think there will be a lot more support because the current generation has a lot of great bands capable of demonstrating their talent on a national level within five years. I hope that as the years pass by more participation from Monterrock will be present in Texas as it already is in South Padre Island’s Yuju! Fest. I general, I believe in the promising future that bands from Monterrey have on the national and international level.

By: Ashley N. Garcia

Ceci Bastida: Latin Alternative Rockera

Ceci Bastida joined her first band, Tijuana NO at age 15 as lead vocalist, keyboardist and songwriter and became one of the first women to rise in the ranks of Latin rock. One of Mexico’s most important ska-punk bands of the 1990s, Tijuana NO performed together for 12 years and recorded three albums NO, Transgresores de la Ley, and Contra-Revolucion Avenue.

Since 2000, you can find Ceci playing keyboard and singing back up vocals to internationally known recording artist Julieta Venegas. Now going solo, Ceci’s passionate, hypnotic tunes have been heard on the new MTV TR3S show Indie 101, and through thousands of hits on www.myspace.com/cecibastida.

Ceci Basitda
Latinitas recently met up with Ms. Bastida through Skype at a recent Spring Break Camp. Campers asked her a number of questions and here’s what they found.

Where were you born and where did you grow up?

I was born and raised in Tijuana, Mexico.

When can you first remember wanting to do music?

I think I realized that I wanted to work in music when I was about 15 years old. Before then I used to play piano at home and the thought of me playing in a band and writing songs didn’t cross my mind.

Who are your female influences in music? male?

I don’t think I have specific female artists that I think have influenced me. I know I listened to Bjork when I was younger, Pauline Black from The Selecter was amazing, I loved the power in her voice and how rhythmic it was. I also loved Annabella Lwin from Bow Wow Wow.

I listened to The Clash a lot when I was growing up. I also loved Bob Marley, David Bowie, The Specials. This is all music that I listened to when I was a teenager and a lot of these artists made me wanna become a musician.

Describe one of your favorite songs?

this is a tough one… There are so many songs out there that I love.

What instruments do you play?

I play piano and melodica (which has keys like a piano so I guess it might not count).

How has it been going solo these past few years?

It’s been amazing. I’ve had a lot of fun and I also feel that I’ve learned a lot. Guiding a band is not an easy thing to do. Before, when I was playing with Julieta Venegas I didn’t have to do much except play and rehearse. Now that I’m doing this on my own, there are so many things I need to take care of and it can be difficult at times.

What’s the most challenging part of your job?

Writing the songs is fun but it can also be torture. When everything flows I’m in the best mood. When things don’t, I start doubting myself way too much.
I also would love to play in Mexico and Latin America and it’s difficult when you don’t have much of a a budget for it. I hope I’m able to go at some point this year.

How do you feel the music industry receives women?

I’ve never had issues with label guys telling me what to do or not to do. But I also know that a lot of them compare women too much. They think that if one sings and writes her own music, she probably sounds like another girl that writes and sings her own music. Even if the music is completely different. I believe that sort of thing happens more with women than it does with men.

Who has been your most exciting celebrity meeting/collaboration in music?

When I was younger and I was playing with my old band Tijuana No, we worked on several occasions with Manu Chao. I always thought he was amazing and loved that we got to work together. I also worked with Kim Deal from The Breeders and I absolutely loved her. She’s an amazing singer and a really cool person.

What do you recommend to our young Latinitas who are interested in pursuing a career in music?

I think that if you are passionate about something you should always pursuit it. Be always honest with yourself and do it because you love it.

To listen to music from Ceci Bastida go to: http://www.myspace.com/cecibastida

David Garza

David Garza, pronounced dah-VEED, is a singer-songwriter based in Austin, TX. Though he sings in English, there is a Latin touch to his indie rock music. He describes his music as “loud and funky.”

After playing in various high school bands, Garza headed to the University of Texas at Austin and formed his own trio during freshman year. He later left the band to begin a solo career.

Garza has toured with Alanis Morsette and performed at the Austin City Limits festival since its first year in 2002. His most recent CD, Dream Delay, was released in 2008. To listen to his music, visit his official site davidgarza.com or myspace.com/davidgarza.

Ha*Ash Rocks Out

When Ha*Ash, one of Mexico’s top pop/rock groups, rocked out last summer in an outdoor concert known as “Mi Círculo, Mi Música” (Mi Circle, My Music), we had the opportunity to interview them.  The duo of sisters Hanna Nicole and Ashley Grace Pérez Mosa make up Ha-Ash.

The band talked about the meaning of their songs and its relationship with youths. Both agreed that their songs are about the things that are important in their lives like love, friendship and family.  They focus on their songs on these topics because they are part of everybody’s lives and can be reflected through music.

During our interview, they also mentioned the importance of their Hispanic heritage. The sisters Hanna and Ashley, who both were born in the United States, but raised in Mexico, said that their music is influenced by two cultures.  “Although we were born in Louisiana, our heritage is a combination of Mexican-American cultures because we were raised in Mexico City,” shared Hanna. “For this reason, we interpret our music in Spanish.  We are proud of being part of this ethnicity; it’s our background.  And we love it!” added Ashley.

The sisters had an interest in singing from an early age. When they were 11 and 13 in age, they won a music-talent show at their school. Years later, they received an invitation to participate in the Railroad Festival.  At the festival, they were discovered by Sony Music, which  was impressed by the talent of the girls.  They wanted to include parts of both of their names, so they formed the group Ha-Ash.

Between 2003 and 2006, after the success of their first album, they worked with Mexican producer Aureo Baqueiro. Their second album, <em>Mundos Opuestos</em>, followed, with their single “Que Hago Yo,” which was written by Colombian artist Soraya. This single reached #1 on the Mexican chart and beat Shakira’s “Hips Don’t Lie.”  This is just the beginning for the talented duo. Their latest album, <em>Habitación Doble</em>, was released in 2008, and they are showing no signs of slowing down.

By Nancy Moya<br />

Music Review: Rock Bands

What artist, band, or album are you reviewing? Eighteen Visions – Obsession

How would you rate it? I would give the album a nine. It is a good CD.

What do you like about it? I don’t have to skip to the next song. I can listen to the whole thing.

What do you dislike about it? I don’t think there is anything I dislike about it. I like it a lot.

How does listening to this music make you feel? Happy. It makes me want to dance.

Who are your favorite musicians? Chamillionaire, the Postal Service, and Coheed and Cambria.

Related Links: www.eighteenvisions.com

Review by Lizeth Padron, 17


What artist, band, or album are you reviewing? Nickelback

How would you rate it? 5 stars

What do you like about it? I like how it has all kinds of moods. Some songs are really loud and “rockish,” while some are quiet and smooth. My favorite song is “Rockstar.”

What do you dislike about it? I like everything about them.

How does listening to this music make you feel? I like to listen to it when I’m sad and when I’m happy.

Who are your favorite musicians? My Chemical Romance, Toby Keith, Kelly Pickler, Gretchen Wilson, Carrie Underwood, Rascal Flatts, Blue October, Avril Lavigne, Linkin Park, Akon, Eminem, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The Eagles, Ozzy Osbourne, Led Zeppelin and Shaggy

Backstage with La Academia’s Yahir

When some folks in downtown Austin, Texas may have thought that things couldn’t get any hotter with the 90-degree October weather—they did! Punked in a black shirt with flaming sleeves, and let’s not forget those dark shades, one of Mexico’s rising stars tuned up backstage to rock the state capital as part of the 25th annual Old Pecan Street Festival.

“¡Yahir! ¡Yahir!”.

Yahir walking in the crowd
Fans began belting out more than 30 minutes before the Latin hottie hit the stage. Fans—young and old—packed the streets, some waving pictures of their favorite artist.

Many fans first met Yahir Othón Parra at the age of 22, five years ago, when he starred in Mexico’s “La Academia,” a reality show sometimes described as a mix of “Big Brother” and “American Idol.” As a first generation participant of the show, Yahir was voted as the fourth place winner.

Fast forward five years and four albums later, and you’ve got one of Mexico’s hottest singers to come out of “La Academia.” Yahir is on the brink of taking on the world.

Less than a week after the release of his new album, “Con Alma Entre Las Manos,” Mexico’s pop star received a big Texas welcome in early October, marking one example of his rising success.

“This is my first time in Austin, and I’ll never forget it,” Yahir announced to his fans as he took to the stage.

This may have been Yahir’s first visit, but his fans were pumped. For more than 30 minutes, they joined Yahir in singing his greatest hits. Closing with his most recent, “Maldito Amor,” one thing’s for sure: this guy can sing. His talent, not to mention his good looks, and unyielding smile, make this rising star caliente!

After the concert, Yahir stuck around for a bit. I caught up with him backstage to ask him a few quick questions.

Yahir singing

Yahir, Up Close

Q: How did you get your name?

Yahir: My dad gave me my name, which comes from a soccer player from Brazil. Interestingly, my last name is also Brazilian.

Q: How did you get started in music?

Yahir: I have been a musician since I can remember. My grandfather has been a mariachi for 40 years. My dad is also a musician. My mom sings beautifully. My cousins have a mariachi; I have other cousins who have a norteño group that’s called Los Venados del Norte. So we’re around in the music—for all of our lives. I can’t regret it because it’s what I love the most. I believed that I could be a musician all of my life—if it isn’t here or if I’m not famous—maybe I’ll be in a bar or maybe a cantina or maybe in a bus. I don’t know, but I’ll be around.

Yahir being interviewed

Q: What advice would you give teens who want to pursue a music career?

Yahir: I believe that when one decides to look for what one loves or what one wants—the passion of a person—then one should look for and become really involved. Start to take classes or try out different things. Start making demos; start hanging out with musicians. Learn about all of that.

Look for the cities where the opportunities are. For example, Mexico City is an area where there is incredible opportunity. Here [in the U.S.], for example, Los Angeles or Atlanta or New York are very important cities. I believe that the main thing is to have your own unique style and become more involved in instruments and make songs. Trust in someone that can help you create your first album because otherwise it is very complicated.

Q: Who do you turn to when things get difficult?

Yahir: I have very good friends. When I arrived in Tijuana, I was 17 years old. There I sang until I was 22 years old, which is when I started in “La Academia.”
I made great friends, and my family has always been and continues to be at my side. My childhood friends continue to be my friends.

I am living a great moment. I am in a period of growth that is very important. But my priority is my family; my priority is my son; my priority is what I have in my home—those things you don’t get from any other place.

Your Questions
Wait! We didn’t forget about your questions!
Here’s what Yahir had to say about what you wanted to know …

Elena, 13: How does it feel for people to be singing your songs?

Truthfully, I wasn’t expecting the people’s response. It’s the first time we’re here [in Austin]. I didn’t know if in Austin “La Locura” had been heard. I didn’t know if “Alucinado” had been heard. And now I see that they have. I loved that they sang along—that they participated with me and had a good time. I saw boys, girls, men, and women—and that is the most important part.

Sarahi, 14: How does it feel getting this far?

Yesterday, I was in Morelia and the people sang “Maldito Amor” with me. Today [in Austin], they also sang “Maldito Amor” with me. I believe that that is when one starts to ‘medir el agua a los camotes’ (see where one stands, in this case, in his career). I believe that when a song starts coming out on the radio and when people begin to listen to it—that means something. For me, the theme of “Maldito Amor” is strong and unique.

What’s Next for Yahir

Fans waited around after the concert to catch one last glimpse of Mexico’s pop star. A little shove here and there from die-hard fans did not phase the singer. With a smile stamped on his face, he signed his name on money, shirts, caps and more before catching his flight back to Mexico.

But what’s next for Yahir? With record sales in Mexico from his latest album (released in the U.S. this September), it’s no wonder this pop star is a little busy these days.

Before the Texas concert, Yahir was belting out some of his hits in Sonora, Mexico. After the October 1 concert in Texas, Yahir headed back to Mexico. In the last week of October, he’ll be dropping in on Spain to promote his new album. It seems like a lot of bouncing around for Yahir, but this Latin star doesn’t seem to mind. As a matter of fact, he’s just getting started!

Can’t get enough of Yahir, but don’t know where to find him? Find hot pics and listen to his latest hits for free on his myspace page: http://profile.myspace.com/yahirthebest. You can also find more info at the band’s Web site: yahirweb.com.mx.

My Anti-drug

Music:
I love the sound, the vibrations of each note, so lovely, harmonious, and calm. It’s been almost two years since my fingers turned calloused, red and swollen, when I couldn’t even play Ode to Joy as fast as I can now.

When I started to play guitar, when I got one… my music taste was way different… closed minded. I only liked rock and heavy metal. But it wasn’t real, it wasn’t talented music… Now, I feel like it wasn’t even music at all.

The way I look at things changed, to a more beautiful way. I don’t think I was like many teenagers; turning to drugs, cutting themselves, killing themselves to fit in. Instead I became obsessed with learning guitar. I taught my self, which made it even more challenging. Music has become my gateway, my escape. It is like a meditation, a relaxation. It helps me be happy. I look at some of the friends I use to hang out with… still doing the things they’ve always done… I don’t know about them, but for me the “drugs” really turned into a pointless release, I have no interest. I look at them, knowing these aren’t the type of friends I’ll ever want. I think music gave me a way to feel talented, to do something I loved to do, a way to be myself. Music is a way to let out my feelings. After I discovered I loved music, I decided I never wanted to fit in. I don’t care any more.

This discovery helped me be me, to figure out myself. I thought, “really what’s the point of acting stupid for no apparent reason, why do people do that to themselves?” That’s when I just put myself out there, saying my opinion, even if people don’t like it or don’t even care about it.

I started to find a great interest in politics, maybe from the different music I would listen to, some of the songs were political. I started spending more time with my family. I care a whole lot about nature and was determined to save it and still am. I even finally got the guts to say “that’s so stupid!” to people when they were high.

My love for music changed. Because playing guitar is my high. All my old friends wanted to do was “chill”. They would spend so much money to have fun. It was pathetic! You can’t buy happiness! Why would they think that? I got sick of it, and got friends that would hang out, and do things with me like swimming, running, biking or going to political meetings, instead of just going to the movies, or doing nothing. I could never have my old friends over because if they did come over, they would be bored. They were not interested in my crazy world that I live in, and only wanted to be cool and smoke.

I think that many people have no way to control their emotions or dealing with what they are going through. They feel like drugs are their only way to escape it. I was never attracted to getting stoned, I didn’t need to, I didn’t want to, and I didn’t see the point in it. There were times were I would get so angry and instead of damaging me, I would scream and sing at the same time. I would make up some song using what was on my mind… and let every color of my feelings into the strums and out of my voice. And then I would feel better. Relaxed… Isn’t that easier?? And it is real and it lasts.

By Hannah Otis