There are different kinds of strengths that girls possess and every single one matters. As small as something may seem, it can be something huge for another.
I am a chica poderosa because I have been fighting against depression every day of my life for the most part of my life. While many people would think that beating depression is relatively easy – just smile and don’t be sad! – it’s an exhausting battle. People have told me to think positive but it’s easier said than done, especially to people who have never experienced any sort of mental illness before. Sometimes these well-meaning words make it worse.
People with depression experience hopelessness in most aspects of life, and most of us have learned helplessness. We don’t do anything about our situation because it won’t change anything. At least, that is what I used to think. This type of behavior is associated with learned helplessness.
Learned helplessness, according to psychology, is “a condition in which a person suffers from a sense of powerlessness, arising from a traumatic event or persistent failure to succeed. It is thought to be one of the underlying causes of depression.”
The condition can be picked up from years of being subjected to abuse. This is exactly how I picked it up. I grew up in an abusive household and eventually, I didn’t think that there was anything I could do to change my situation. My mother and I lived like this for years.Even after we had gotten out of my abusive father’s grasp, the learned helplessness still lingered in my mind. Depression was born from it.
Eventually, through years and years of therapy and psychiatric evaluations, I managed to be able to control it.
Many people with depression have dangerous urges. Many people with depression don’t see the point on keeping on living; many people with depression want everything to stop. A sense of hopelessness suffocates us.
I am a chica poderosa because I have managed to overcome said urges. I live every day with a small voice in the back of my head telling me to go through with many dangerous things but through sheer power of will, I keep myself in check.
I am a chica poderosa because of the people that surround me. My mother, my friends, my teachers. I cope with depression by trying to do some good in the world. I have involved myself in various organizations to be able to make a difference in my community.
The one that has made the greatest impact in my life has been The Austin High Latino Partnership. AHLP is an academic and service-oriented organization dedicated to improving Austin through various service projects. For example, we carried out a Blue Jean Drive in which we managed to collect 181 gently used blue jeans and various other articles of clothing and then donated them to Casa Marianella, an emergency housing shelter in East Austin, which currently houses about 35 immigrants and 11 families.
I’m a chica poderosa and you can be too. You just have to find your ray of light. Helping the community is mine. It’s what I live for.